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Pray It Till You Make It


Although controversial to some, I credit evangelist Joyce Meyer with the jumpstart to my transformation from โ€œbaby Christianโ€ to a maturing one.ย ย Why? The day I broke down and said to God, โ€œWhy am I still so unhappy?ย ย Why canโ€™t I experience joy and peace in my life?โ€ He admonished me and asked, โ€œWhat have you really done?โ€ย ย Yes, He really did say that, out loud, twice.ย ย I landed on my knees and asked Him to direct me.ย ย I knew that I hadnโ€™t been โ€œall in.โ€ย ย My first step was to go and buy a devotional.ย ย As I stood in front of the many books I prayed, โ€œGod, tell me which is the one I need right now.โ€ย ย And thatโ€™s how I ended up with Ms. Meyerโ€™s book,ย Power Thoughts.

โ€œPower Thought: My thoughts are not hidden from God. I know I can change with His help.โ€ย 

Joyce Meyer, Power Thoughts Devotional: 365 Daily Inspirations for Winning the Battle of the Mind

The reason it spoke to me is that it focused on that tiny part of me that ends up ruling everything about my life โ€“ my thoughts.ย ย At the time, I proudly wore a badge of pessimism.ย ย I was constantly outraged, angry, hurt or sad.ย ย And yet on the outside my life was truly blessed.ย ย I needed to attack the devil living inside my head with the power of God (Psalms 139:23).

Words are extremely powerful.  They can hurt and heal.  They can tear down and build up.  They can cause fear and joy.  With words we can complain or comfort.  And what is prayer but words?  

Iโ€™ve been challenged to create a list of statements about my life as God sees it (Isaiah 55:8). Itโ€™s not a list of what Iโ€™m like right now.ย ย Itโ€™s not a New Yearโ€™s resolution list.ย ย Itโ€™s a list of prayers, based on the Word of God, of what I will be and have in my life with Godโ€™s intervention.


Power of Positive Thinking โ€“ Mayo Clinic

“Positive thinking often starts with self-talk. Self-talk is the endless stream of unspoken thoughts that run through your head. These automatic thoughts can be positive or negative. Some of your self-talk comes from logic and reason. Other self-talk may arise from misconceptions that you create because of lack of information.

If the thoughts that run through your head are mostly negative, your outlook on life is more likely pessimistic. If your thoughts are mostly positive, you’re likely an optimist โ€” someone who practices positive thinking.”


This may sound a bit โ€œnew ageโ€ โ€“ and itโ€™s true that a list of positive changes in our lives that we decide to just talk about may never come to fruition.ย ย But as Christians we have the transformational power of prayer at our fingertips (James 5:16).ย ย And our challenge will be to not only listen to the Holy Spirit for guidance but to then pray daily those changes.

It is not so true that โ€œprayer changes thingsโ€ as that prayer changes me and I change things. God has so constituted things that prayer on the basis of Redemption alters the way in which a man looks at things. Prayer is not a question of altering things externally, but of working wonders in a manโ€™s disposition.

Oswald Chambers

So, get out a new sheet of paper and join me as we create our transformation list January 11-29.ย ย A transformation into mature Jesus followers.ย ย A transformation into the people God truly wants us to be.ย ย Because up until now, what have you truly done to walk fully in the life He wants for you?

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Amazing Presence

As they talked and discussed these things with each other, Jesus himself came up and walked along with them;ย but they were kept from recognizing him.

He asked them,ย โ€œWhat are you discussing together as you walk along?โ€

They stood still, their faces downcast.ย One of them, named Cleopas,ย asked him, โ€œAre you the only one visiting Jerusalem who does not know the things that have happened there in these days?โ€

โ€œWhat things?โ€ย he asked.

โ€œAbout Jesus of Nazareth,โ€ย they replied. โ€œHe was a prophet,ย powerful in word and deed before God and all the people.ย The chief priests and our rulers handed him over to be sentenced to death, and they crucified him;ย but we had hoped that he was the one who was going to redeem Israel.ย And what is more, it is the third dayย since all this took place.ย In addition, some of our women amazed us.ย They went to the tomb early this morningย but didnโ€™t find his body. They came and told us that they had seen a vision of angels, who said he was alive.ย Then some of our companions went to the tomb and found it just as the women had said, but they did not see Jesus.โ€

He said to them,ย โ€œHow foolish you are, and how slow to believe all that the prophets have spoken!ย Did not the Messiah have to suffer these things and then enter his glory?โ€

Luke 24:16-26


Depending on how Messianic scholars classify the prophesies in the Old Testament about the coming of Jesus, you will find between 200 and more than 400 statements about the Son of God becoming a man to teach us and be our ultimate sacrifice.  Given that information, which was taught throughout the Jewish faith, you have to wonder why anyone at the time of Jesusโ€™ death didnโ€™t understand what was going on.  It shouldnโ€™t have been a surprise that He would also be resurrected.  Yet disciple after disciple, woman and man, we see either their disbelief or shocking amazement when Jesus stood with them after His death.

But we canโ€™t be too hard on those people of old.ย ย I mean we have 1,000s of years of Bible study, the hindsight of the entire New Testament, and more Bible scholars and preachers than we could ever count explaining the connections and the truths of this amazing story.ย ย And yet so many of us, even Christians, have a hard time truly accepting that Jesus is with us, even today.ย ย He stands in front of us with an open hand almost pleading with us to surrender and follow Him.ย ย He stands next to us, holding our hand, as we take scary, daring steps of faith.ย ย And He stands watch over us guiding and protecting us.ย ย When we fully accept that Jesus is our Lord and Savior, we can feel His constant, amazing presence.

I heard a sermon the other day by Joyce Meyer called, โ€œWhat is Faith?โ€  In it she encourages those whose families are grown and left the nest, who have lost spouses, who feel as though no one loves them, to grasp on to the knowledge that Jesus is ever-present in our lives.  He is with us when we go to the grocery store.  He is with us when we sit and watch a sunset.  He is with us when we lie down, alone, in our beds.  

I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are oneโ€”ย I in them and you in meโ€”so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent meย and have loved themย even as you have loved me.

John 18:22-23

When we read the verses today in Luke 24, we might gloss over the fact that Jesus had already died.ย ย What happened on that road to Emmaus could have just as easily been written today.ย ย There was nothing special about the two men to which Jesus appeared.ย ย They are you and me.ย ย We can leave church or a Bible study waxing philosophical about the amazing presence of Jesus โ€œway back whenโ€ and completely miss that He is walking right there with us!ย ย 

I once heard a woman in a Bible study say to the group, โ€œHow come God doesnโ€™t talk to us like He did in the Bible?โ€  I found it fascinating that this person has somehow missed the prolific authors who have received urgings and messages from the Holy Spirit.  She somehow has ignored all the testimonials she has heard in church from people who have been miraculously saved.  She somehow missed my own telling, to that very group, of my Jesus vision.

โ€œUnless you people see signs and wonders,โ€ Jesus told him, โ€œyou will never believe.โ€ย 

John 4:48

Are you ignoring Jesusโ€™ amazing, constant presence?ย ย Has he walked along with you, sat at your dinner table and you didnโ€™t acknowledge it was Him?ย ย Are you looking for a burning bush outside your door to speak in a Charlton Heston-esque voice to make decisions for you?ย ย Iโ€™m not saying that wonโ€™t happen but Jesusโ€™ character is a lot more quiet and gentle.ย ย He wants you to have the โ€œah ha momentโ€ like the men in our story today.ย ย He leads you, tiny step by step to clearing the mud from your eyes and ears.ย ย And if you will only accept the burning bush as โ€œproofโ€ of His presence you will surely miss Him along the path.

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His Amazing Word

In the beginning the Word already existed. The Word was with God, and the Word was God.

John 1:1


This week, on one of the Instagram accounts I follow, the site owner posed the question: What good thing happened to you this year?  She added, โ€œLetโ€™s spread some gratitude vibes.โ€  My answer? That my faith has gotten so much more in-depth and stronger.  Amazing, given whatโ€™s all happened in 2020.   I no longer have a home church.  In fact, I havenโ€™t been to church since the last weekend of February.  When I questioned my church closing indefinitely, I was met with some pretty nasty responses.  And when I asked to be removed from the rolls I received an email from the assistant pastor with a polite version of โ€œdonโ€™t let the door hit you on the way out.โ€

So, itโ€™s pretty amazing that without a body of faithful Christians to help in my growth that I am where I am today.ย ย 

When I looked over this weekโ€™s post by Madison and myself, I realized that my growth was reflected in the lessons.  The acceptance of Godโ€™s amazing interruptions โ€“ knowing He works all things for my good.  The acknowledgement of His amazing authority over all situations โ€“ yes, even the ones that donโ€™t seem to make any sense.  The proof that He loves me by reading the Book of John.  And how much my picture of Jesus has changed these last few months โ€“ from a historical figure to a spirit that lives inside me.

My devotional this week had a day titled, โ€œWhat to do when trouble comes.โ€  Itโ€™s based on 1 Timothy 6:17 which states, โ€œFight the good fight of the faith.โ€  It went on to say that trouble is a part of life, so we simply have to be ready for it. (Joyce Meyer, New Day, New You).  A friend told me the other day she wishes she could just fast forward to 2022.  My response? โ€œWhy? There might be a nuclear fallout that year.  So, you might as well find joy in today.โ€   

How do we, as Christians, get prepared?ย ย How do we build up our amazing faith muscle for that day when trouble comes, because it most certainly will?ย ย And looking at this weekโ€™s blog posts the answer is clear โ€“ steeping ourselves in Godโ€™s Holy Word.ย ย 

I find myself extremely blessed to have started a small Bible study group โ€“ theyโ€™re my BSGs (Bible study girls) โ€“ back in January.ย ย I was encouraged by one of the members to re-start a study group.ย ย On an urging by the Holy Spirit, I invited two other women from my gym. They eagerly said yes.ย ย So, the four of us embarked on a journey we had no idea would be an anchor for us this year.ย ย We started out with easy faith muscles and moved up to weightier topics.ย ย These three women became my church.ย ย My amazing sisters in Christ.ย ย It wasnโ€™t just about having women that wanted to get together.ย ย Weโ€™ve put in the work.ย ย Weโ€™ve been diligent in our faith workouts.ย ย Weโ€™ve dug deep not only into His Word but into our own sins.

Iโ€™ve led other Bible studies before.ย ย Thereโ€™s always a few that blow off doing the homework and not take it seriously.ย ย Then thereโ€™s others that arenโ€™t willing to take the opportunity to open themselves up for conviction.ย ย If we truly want to know Godโ€™s character, not ours, and Godโ€™s will, not ours, we need to use His Divine Word as our touchstone.ย ย The world longs to cheat us out of the true, amazing, love God has for us.ย ย The world plays a shell game with morality.ย ย If we want to grab on to the more than 5,000 promises God makes in the Bible then we need to treat it seriously.

Did you need to re-read that last sentence? More than 5,000 promises.ย ย How many of them do you know?ย ย How many of them have you taken to heart?ย ย Those amazing promises are sitting right there in that book.ย ย 

Jesus asked, “Do you believe that I am able to do this?”

Matthew 9:28

Letโ€™s be a church together and dive deep into those promises.ย ย Letโ€™s be a church together that accepts His interruptions with joy and peace.ย ย Letโ€™s be a church together that places His authority over everything in our lives.ย ย Letโ€™s be a church that needs no other proof of His love for us than our own existence.ย ย Letโ€™s be a church together that sees Jesus for who He is โ€“ our Lord and Savior who loves us and wants for us to live apart from what the world throws at us.ย ย Today we can open up His Word and find joy right there on its pages.

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Patience, Grasshopper


Iโ€™ve told my friends that looking back over my life so far, I really have only one regret.ย ย Itโ€™s that I wish I had a closer relationship with Jesus when I was the parent of young kids.ย ย My husband and I attended church fairly regularly.ย ย But I was wrapped up in childrearing worries and stresses and didnโ€™t know how to turn all that over to God.ย ย ย I couldโ€™ve enjoyed many more hours of sleep had I not been such a โ€œwoulda, coulda, shouldaโ€ person.ย ย I found myself, during a very long season of self-doubt about my parenting skills, constantly praying for patience.ย ย Literally praying every single night for about two years for patience.ย ย You see, I was so afraid of turning into my mother โ€“ screaming at my kids and losing control โ€“ that I thought patience was the answer.ย ย One Sunday, our pastorโ€™s sermon was about praying.ย ย He said, โ€œIf you keep praying about the same problem over and over and over maybe itโ€™s time to start praying for something different.โ€ย ย ย He had a knack for speaking on issues near and dear to me.ย ย ย So that night I stopped praying for patience and instead prayed for ways to help me deal with difficult situations.

As Iโ€™ve grown closer to Jesus, He has taught me a lot of lessons.  Heโ€™s still teaching me.  And step-by-step He has moved me closer to my original plea for patience.  You see, I wasnโ€™t ready to learn the hard stuff yet.  He just wanted me to start turning to Him when I was in need, when I was broken.  Patience may be a virtue but it is a heck of a hard thing to have and use regularly.  

You, too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lordโ€™s coming is near.โ€

James 5:8

I first needed to learn what standing firm, standing safely in Godโ€™s arms even meant.ย ย I didnโ€™t have the wisdom needed to grasp the joy in hearing that the Lord is coming near.ย ย I heard on a Joyce Meyerโ€™s podcast this morning that God gives us a lot of leeway and grace when we first become Christians.ย ย But once we hear the Word and gain His wisdom, expectations change.ย ย We are expected to act as His children, not as children of this world.ย ย Think about that.ย ย Every time we attend church, do a Bible study, listen to a Christian podcast, see a Christian post on social media we are hearing His Word.ย ย We are learning the nature and expectations of God.ย ย And He expects us to live as He prescribes.

A personโ€™s wisdom yields patience; it is the oneโ€™s glory to overlook offense.

Proverbs 19:11

Wisdom that we glean from God yields patience.ย ย And when we are patient, that glorifies what we have learned from God.ย ย We cannot be steeped in the nature of God without also knowing and acting in patience.ย ย Why?ย Because patience means love.ย ย It means grace.ย ย It means forgiveness.ย ย Thank God He is patient with us.ย ย I never feel God rushes me to learn a lesson.ย ย In fact, my lesson in patience has taken about 26 years.


I looked up on-line โ€œhow to be patient.โ€  I came across a website that focuses on self -improvement.  Hereโ€™s their reasons why we should learn patience.

  1. We make better decisions by assessing situations rather than going in emotional and blind.
  2. We have less stress by understanding some things take longer than others.
  3. Our relationships are improved because we are more flexible and understanding.

Doesnโ€™t that all sound like something God would want from us?  Being wise, giving our stress up to God, and loving and being grace-filled toward others.

They then described a 6-step process for learning patience:

  1. Understand and counteract triggers
  2. Increase your self-confidence
  3. Put on your โ€œpositive glassesโ€
  4. Change your attitude โ€“ โ€œwhy are you in such a hurry?โ€
  5. Visualize worst case scenarios
  6. Release tension and stress through eating right, exercise, enjoying activities

Now imaging trying to do all that without God.ย ย Hereโ€™s my Christian re-do of these six steps:

  • Pray for God to reveal the areas where you struggle with patience (sometimes we pretend we arenโ€™t being impatient and justify our actions)ย 

John 16:24, โ€œUntil now you have not asked for anything in my name.  Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.โ€

  • Recognize that God loves you.ย ย Accept He wants the very best for you.ย ย 

John 16:27, โ€œNo, the Father himself loves you because you have loved me and have believed that I came from God.โ€ 

  • Remember that joy can be found in trials.ย ย And most of all that God has delivered for you in the past.ย ย He is faithful.ย 

2 Thes 3:3, โ€œBut the Lord is faithful, and He will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.โ€

  • Rejoice each and every day, if not every hour, for all the great things in your life.ย ย 

Prov 17:22, โ€œA cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.โ€

  • To be honest, visualizing worst case scenarios has been helpful to me.ย ย If Iโ€™m waiting in a long line at Costco and start getting impatient I think, โ€œWell, what have I got to be impatient for anyways?โ€ or โ€œWell, if Iโ€™m late because of this line I can call ahead and let them know.โ€ย ย 

Matt 6:27, โ€œCan anyone of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?โ€

  • Yes, eat right, exercise, enjoy new and old activities.ย ย And pray.ย ย And pray.ย ย And pray.ย ย Give up all those thoughts, those worries, those fears, those negative emotions to God.ย ย Cry out to Jesus and ask Him to remove whatever negative thought you have right then.ย 

1 Samuel 2:1, โ€œMy heart rejoices in the Lord; in the Lord my horn is lifted high.  My mouth boasts over my enemies, for I delight in your deliverance.โ€


When we get closer to God โ€“ become fluent in His character โ€“ that is when He can work His ways in us.  And God is always patient with us.  My friend and I were having lunch today and she said she is starting to have more moments in her difficult life where she looks up and gives a little smile โ€“ recognizing those growth moments God has put in front of her.  As for me, I described for her my process of writing and how I study the topic, pray, and then start writing.  I rarely stop writing one of these posts until I am done.  The words just come out of me onto the computer.  My whole body is focused on getting these words down.  I told her how weird it was that I was interrupted multiple times while writing this post.  And as I drove home from lunch, I was listening to a praise song and it hit me.  Patience.  The topic of this post.  And I had just been tested.  I was not annoyed about the interruptions.  I felt blessed hearing from a few friends.  And normally I wouldโ€™ve been distracted during lunch, thinking about what else I needed to write.  I wouldโ€™ve failed my friend who I need to support during this time in her life.

I called my friend from my car and said, โ€œI just got it!ย ย Patience!ย ย I was tested!โ€ย ย And she said, โ€œI realized that while you were telling me.ย ย And Iโ€™m glad it finally came to you.โ€ย ย Maybe this whole actually studying Godโ€™s Word really does work.ย ย Time to look up and smile.

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A Good Plan


When my eldest was two years old (sheโ€™s now 27) I quit my career job.ย ย It was a big decision for me as I placed so much value in working.ย ย I had never planned on being married and having children so getting a good education and then a good career was my grand plan.ย ย And here I was, about 10 years after graduating college, quitting.ย ย One day, we were out for a walk.ย ย At a busy intersection, the crosswalk light turned for us and I pushed the stroller in front of a line of waiting cars.ย ย Halfway across a man yelled out of his car, โ€œHurry up and why donโ€™t you get a damn job!โ€ย ย I was mortified.ย ย I wasnโ€™t angry with the man for being out of line, I was ashamed.ย ย Ashamed I didnโ€™t have a job to identify me as โ€œworthy.โ€ย ย How he would know my job status could only be the work of the devil.

Sometimes we accept the word of satan much easier than the Word of God

Joyce Meyer

My value, my self-worth, was wrapped up in a career.ย ย Here I had a beautiful baby, a loving husband, a nice home and yet I was unable to see these gifts from God.ย ย I had a plan and I had quit that plan.ย ย I was a failure.ย ย Each day my husband would come home and out of habit ask me what I had done that day.ย ย Boy did that get my hackles up!ย ย I started inventing things I had done or making what little I had done sound so exhausting and important.ย ย I mean a trip to the dry cleaning can really take a lot out of you.ย ย Instead of enjoying those precious moments of playing hide and go seek with my daughter I fretted over my future.

โ€œNow listen, you who say, โ€œToday or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.ย ย Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow.โ€

James 4:13-14

Life seems so complex and we want to control it.ย ย By making our plans we try to take the chaos out of our lives.ย ย We donโ€™t want to be those โ€œlosersโ€ who donโ€™t have enough money to live on when we retire.ย ย We make grand plans for our bank accounts.ย ย We try to position ourselves so we are the ones that get that great promotion.ย ย We commit ourselves to long term goals with creating a family, losing weight, travelling, careers and so much more.ย ย And yet, we forget about today.ย ย The right here and now.

โ€œDo not boast about tomorrow for you do not know what a day may bring.โ€

Proverbs 27:1

That doesnโ€™t mean we arenโ€™t to be good stewards of our gifts.ย ย I did a Bible study once where the entire focus was on being a good manager of what God has placed in our hands.ย ย You see itโ€™s never about having money or not having money with God.ย ย Itโ€™s never about having a good job or not.ย ย Itโ€™s not about saving money to buy a home or not.ย ย Godโ€™s has all good things in mind for us.ย ย Itโ€™s always about our relationship with Him.ย ย When we submit to the will of God, it all starts to make sense.

I used to pray for God to bring me joy one day.ย ย That day was, of course, when I was financially secure, my kids were in good jobs and married, and I finally had the perfect lakehouse.ย ย Sounds like the perfect plan, right?ย ย I kept putting off joy.ย ย Instead of investing in my eternal life by appreciating today, I was investing in my earthly life by ignoring today.ย ย I was reading a sermon by Charles Spurgeon today called, โ€œWaiting Only Upon God.โ€ย ย He tells this story about the Scottish novelist and playwright Sir Walter Scott:


โ€œPerhaps there never was a mind more gigantic than the mind of Sir Walter Scott: a man whose soul was as fertile as the newly broken soil of the land of gold. That man was a good man I believe, a Christian; but he made a mistake in the object of his life. His object was to be a lord, to found a family, to plant the root of an ancestral tree the fruit of which should be heard of in ages to come; magnificent in his hospitality, generous in his nature, laborious in his continual strife to win the object of his life, yet after all he died a disappointed and unsuccessful man. He reared his palace, he accumulated his wealth and one sad day saw it scattered to the wind, and he had lost that for which he had lived. Had he fixed his eye upon some better object than the pleasing of the public, or the accumulation of wealth, or the founding of a family, he might have got the others, and he would not have lost the first. Oh! had he said “Now I will serve my God; this potent pen of mine, dedicated to the Most High; shall weave into my marvellous stories things that shall enlighten, convince, and lead to Jesus,” he might have died penniless, but he would have died having achieved the object of his wishesโ€”not a disappointed man.โ€


In other words, God gifts us in so many ways โ€“ with different talents, with finances, with family, etc โ€“ but when we make the plan to succeed at those, without seeking His Will, we will surely be disappointed at the end.ย ย We work and we toil.ย ย We stress and we plan.ย ย And we forget this one thing.

โ€œYou are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.โ€

James 4:14

Itโ€™s true.ย ย We all will die.ย ย We donโ€™t know the day or the hour.ย ย Without God as our light, without God as our object of desire, we waste our days clutching and worrying.ย ย Spurgeon goes on to say that so many of us make our plans and then turn to God asking what we should do and then go do what we originally planned.ย ย Sound familiar?ย ย In fact, after researching for this post I finally realized I hadnโ€™t prayed yet what God wanted me to say.ย ย I kept bouncing back to my notes thinking about what I wanted to write.ย ย I finally just opened my computer, put my hands to the keys and said, โ€œTell me what you want me to say.โ€ย ย I had done my research, I had quotes and verses to pull from so I was prepared.ย ย But in the end, I was also willing to do what God told me to do.

I heard a sermon the other day called โ€œCrazy Faith.โ€ย ย The pastor started out talking about Noah.ย ย Hereโ€™s this guy, most likely a farmer, who the Bible called a โ€œrighteous man.โ€ย ย Meaning he probably honored his debts, paid his workers and did a bang-up job with taking care of his family.ย ย He had it all planned out.ย ย Toil away in the fields year after year and be a successful farmer.ย ย And then God.ย ย The great part of this story is Noah didnโ€™t say, โ€œBut I have my own plan for my life.ย ย Iโ€™m a farmer, not a ship builder.ย ย Oh, and by the way, I donโ€™t live by an ocean.ย ย Iโ€™m going to go out and plant some more seeds and reap my harvest.ย ย Go away.โ€ย ย Iโ€™m sure being a โ€œrighteous manโ€ he prayed to God for good things to happen in his life.ย ย So, when God said, โ€œOk, hereโ€™s a good thing I want you to do.โ€ย ย He did it.ย ย Are we so willing?ย ย Or are we married, fully committed to our plan?ย ย We are so committed that we miss the God given opportunities to help and love others.ย ย We miss the doors He opens for an amazing life rather than the toiling life we have planned.


A few posts ago I mentioned the 100 Lunches Project.ย ย Each week for about a year God led me to feeding the homeless.ย ย It wasnโ€™t about feeding the homeless really.ย ย It was about ripping that need to work and justify my daily activities out of my heart and mind.ย ย ย It was about not planning every single detail out.ย ย It was about going first to Him to check in on what He wanted from me.ย ย At the time I was working at a school counseling office.ย ย I worked three days a week.ย ย It made me feel worthy.ย ย And then He told me that I needed to deliver food regularly on one of those three days.ย ย When I went into the office the next day I said, โ€œI know you are familiar with my 100 Lunches Project.ย ย Well, God told me I need to start doing it on Wednesdays so that means I canโ€™t work that day.โ€ย ย Yep, I said that.ย ย And the response was, โ€œOk, sounds good.ย ย We are happy to have you whichever days you can give us.โ€ย ย My mouth might have dropped open a bit.ย ย Each and every time I went to God for direction, on money, on what to buy, on where to go, on the help I needed, He answered.ย ย And I obeyed.ย ย It was glorious.

So, you see, itโ€™s not about trying to build up that big retirement account.ย ย Itโ€™s about asking God what you should do with that paycheck.ย ย And doing it.ย ย Charles Stanleyโ€™s Life Principles #2 & #5 say to obey God and leave all the consequences to Him โ€“ even if it seems unreasonable.ย ย EVEN IF he asks us to build an ark in the middle of the desert.ย ย He has great plans for us โ€“ we may not ever be famous or wealthy.ย ย But that plan will be good.ย ย And if He doesnโ€™t answer right away, as Christians that live close to God, we already know to be good stewards of His gifts.ย ย We will have prepared for the day He does speak.ย ย Until then, He calls us to enjoy what we have right now.ย ย For tomorrow may never come.

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The Mind-Field


That day we were taking our usual walk through the canyon by my house.  What wasnโ€™t usual was that it was April 2020 โ€“ the height of the panic of Covid-19.  Our entire conversation was focused on trying to discern the truth about the dangers we were facing.  My friend turned to me and said, โ€œI donโ€™t understand.  Why arenโ€™t you afraid?โ€

Before I reveal my answer let me back up a bit.ย ย I am a maturing Christian.ย ย Iโ€™m past the โ€œbaby Christianโ€ phase and making what my Bible Study Girls call โ€œimperfect progress.โ€ย ย Had this virus and the media response to it been around about 10 years ago I would be freaking out.ย ย I wouldnโ€™t be able to sleep.ย ย I would pace the house all day with jumbled, unsettled thoughts โ€“ not being able to accomplish anything.ย ย I would be frantic about the economy, my husbandโ€™s business failing, my kids getting sick and so much more.ย ย The battlefield of my mind would look like a World War 1 field of hidden trenches, barbed wire and the stench of all things unsanitary.ย ย Thatโ€™s how I handled a lot of problems.ย ย Fast forward to that April 2020 walk.

Trench warfare WWW1

โ€œIโ€™m not afraid of dying is the simplest answer,โ€ I replied.ย ย I had peace in my mind and in my heart that for one, I didnโ€™t have control over much of what was going on and two, if I got sick or someone I loved got sick and died I knew I would see them again.ย ย I hadnโ€™t thought about it much until she asked me.ย ย And when I answered I realized my mind battlefield looked more like victory than a bombed-out shelter. Sure there are the occasional skirmishes but my battle plan is solid.

So many of Godโ€™s lessons about going out and making โ€œfishers of menโ€ first require us to get right minded with Jesus.  And James reminds us of this when he admonishes us to control our tongue, commit to doing good deeds, show others mercy, and gain Godโ€™s wisdom.  So, when he says:

โ€œPeacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness.โ€

JAMES 3:18

I first think, “how can I be a peacemaker when I frequently battle myself?”ย ย Weโ€™ve all joked before about having an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.ย ย Each whispering in our ear.ย ย The tug-of-war going on in our minds is surely not peaceful.ย ย And if we canโ€™t get our own mind to be at peace with God then how can we reflect peace out to others?


I was reading excerpts from Francis Frangipaneโ€™s book, The Three Battlegrounds.ย ย One of those battlegrounds is our mind.ย ย The description of the combatants is fascinating.ย ย Itโ€™s important in any battle to know who, exactly, you are up against.

โ€œWe should know this about Satan: he is an ancient and extremely treacherous foe.ย ย On the other hand, the strength of most Christians lies primarily in idealism and untested fervor.โ€

In other words, Satan has had a lot more practice on this battlefield than you or I.ย ย Itโ€™s no wonder he seems to succeed so easily.ย ย We are tricked into thinking all our negative self-talk is justified โ€“ even in the face of knowing we are made in Godโ€™s image.ย ย Ya, but that saggy stomach and those large hips.ย ย ย And people arenโ€™t going to like us anyways.ย ย Honestly, with this realization of Satanโ€™s 10,000 page resume up against our entry into this battlefield for what, 30 years, 20? 5? 1?ย ย Itโ€™s no wonder we struggle finding peace in our minds.ย ย 

โ€œWhat happens when you wake up in the morning feeling low, irritated, discouraged, or frustrated โ€“ and you donโ€™t know exactly why?ย ย There has to be reason.ย ย For every root there is a fruit.โ€

Joyce Meyer, Understanding the Root of Your Fruit

Weโ€™ve all done this โ€“ some of us are doing it every, single day.ย ย We wake up (that is if we ever did get to sleep) and immediately start thinking how bad the day is probably going to be.ย ย ย Sometimes we struggle because we just arenโ€™t taking care of ourselves physically.ย ย Did you drink that extra glass of wine and went to bed late?ย ย Whatโ€™s your diet and exercise routine (ha!)?ย ย Or maybe itโ€™s a spiritual problem like you care too much about what other people think about you instead of focusing on God.ย ย Maybe youโ€™ve forgotten that Jesus lives in you and youโ€™ve shoved Him aside in order to try and โ€œtake control.โ€ย ย ย I do know this, when we arenโ€™t aligning ourselves with God then the opposite must be true.ย ย And if thatโ€™s the case how in the world can we effectively handle a grumpy salesclerk?

โ€œI will listen to what God the Lord says; he promises peace to his people, his faithful servants โ€“ but let them not turn to folly.โ€

PS 85:8

Turning to folly is the key to that statement.ย ย The gift of peace is right there for the taking.ย ย God allows us to be sifted by Satan.ย ย He did it to Peter in order for Peter to get his pride in check.ย ย God knows we have wheat and chaff in our minds.ย ย He is greater than Satan.ย ย ย So, when God allows Satan to test us, sift us, and we turn to the angel on our shoulder instead of the devil, God knows the end product will be good.ย ย ย Our minds want to tell us the opposite of Godโ€™s love.ย ย Our minds want to be distracted by worldly things.ย ย Those darn minds can think too highly or lowly of ourselves.ย ย And our minds like to seek revenge.ย ย ย Just as James describes the small bit controlling a large horse, we need to use Godโ€™s Truth in His Words to tame our wild minds.ย ย 

This is what my mind looks like when I want to just scream!

God is always working in our life.ย ย We just need to pray and persist in our goal toward God-centered wisdom.ย ย ย When we rise in the morning and thank Him for another day to be able to serve Him; when we take the time to sit in communion with Him; when we keep our eyes, hearts and minds on Him throughout our day it doesnโ€™t leave much room for Satan to enter.

Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.ย ย The mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.โ€

Rom 8:5

I donโ€™t know about you but Iโ€™d rather make it through the minefield safely using Jesus as my bomb-sniffing dog.ย ย Constantly looking to him along the path for guidance.ย ย He knows what lies ahead.ย ย When we are closely aligned, I can see His subtle signals telling me to be careful and which steps to take.ย ย When we successfully make it to the other side we can guide others through that field as well.ย ย 

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Lord, I Cry Out For Mercy


She was rarely โ€œlate.โ€  With each passing day she began to worry more.  She and her boyfriend knew better but they were young, just 15 and 16.  They frequently met up for sex while his mother was at work.  And they didnโ€™t use protection.  So, five days after she shouldโ€™ve started her period, she found herself sitting on the toilet, with a small Tupperware bowl waiting to catch her urine.  She had never been to a clinic before and had called to see if they could do a pregnancy test.  As she sat there, she prayed.  She wasnโ€™t a church-goer.  In fact, her parents never spoke of God.  Yet she regularly was moved to pray.  She didnโ€™t know what it meant to trust God or receive justification through faith in Jesus.  She just knew she needed to pray.  She had prayed for a lot of things over the years.  For her mom to stop hitting her.  For her dad to speak to her.  For her brother to stop tormenting her.  She didnโ€™t know if God was listening but she kept praying. 

As she sat there praying for mercy โ€“ because thatโ€™s what would have to happen โ€“ she swore she would change her ways.ย ย She made empty promises, begging to not be pregnant. And just as she began to capture a sample, her period started.ย ย God had not only granted her mercy but also mercy on her potential child.ย ย For had she been pregnant she most assuredly would have aborted it.

That girl was me.ย ย I didnโ€™t deserve His mercy.ย ย I was living in sin, regularly.ย ย I created my own set of rules โ€“ a false sense of โ€œrighteousness.โ€ย ย I deserved the punishment.ย ย I deserved to have to face a difficult choice and live with it for the rest of my life.ย ย But He showed mercy.ย ย Iโ€™ve remembered that day for the past 39 years like it was yesterday.ย ย But how many times have I failed to show others that same mercy?

โ€œSpeak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, because judgement without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful.ย ย Mercy triumphs over judgement.โ€

James 2:12-13

I was recently listening to a podcast by Joyce Meyer.  She spoke about not being mediocre.  Mediocre is halfway between being a failure and being successful.  The work of not being mediocre is constantly seeking knowledge, constantly improving ourselves.  So, the other day I set about creating a Christian definitions list. We sit in church, listen to podcasts, read devotionals but how many times do we hear buzz words or theology that we just donโ€™t grasp?  Hereโ€™s my starting list:

Righteousness: our outward appearance of Godโ€™s truth.ย ย Our actions and our words.ย ย Itโ€™s important to note that without the ingredient of Godโ€™s truth we create a โ€œfalse, man-made righteousness.โ€ (2Tim 3:16)

Sanctification: the process by which the Holy Spirit molds us into Jesusโ€™ image (1Thes 4:1)

Justification: when we pronounce our faith in Jesus Christ and we are instantly saved. (Gal 2:16)

Grace: simply put, Godโ€™s favor and kindness towards us.ย And He shows us grace in different ways:

  1. Salvation Grace: is when our freedom was purchased through Jesusโ€™ blood (Eph 2:8)
  2. Numerous Grace: God forgives me each time I sin (Rom 6:14)
  3. Forgiveness Grace: When God helps me to forgive others (James 4:6)
  4. New Grace: each day I have the opportunity to begin again (Heb 13:25)
  5. Freedom Grace: I am free to forget about other peopleโ€™s opinions and just be me (1Cor 15:10)
  6. Future Grace: God has promised to be with me at all times (Heb 4:16)

Mercy: when we are not given the punishment we deserve. (PS 40:11-13)

When I wrote all this down I received clarity of the amazing work God, through His Holy Spirit,ย ย does in each of us.ย ย But most of all I thought about mercy.ย ย I understood that God forgives us each time we fall into the traps of sin.ย ย We all have been in the situation Paul lamented when he wrote the following:

Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me.ย ย For in my inner being I delight in Godโ€™s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.ย ย What a wretched man I am!ย 

Romans 7:21-24

Each and every day we find ourselves sinning โ€“ worried about money, hoarding our gifts, being judgmental and unkind to others, unforgiving of our loved ones or even strangers.ย ย Gossiping, stealing, or even hating or causing injury to others.ย ย There is only one being to have ever walked this earth that didnโ€™t need Godโ€™s grace, forgiveness and mercy โ€“ Jesus.

Charles Spurgeon wrote in his prayer โ€œDeliver Us From Evil about mercy.

โ€œWe come for mercy, great God.ย ย It must always be our first request, for we have sinned against a just and holy law of which our consciences approve.ย ย We are evil, but Your law is holy and just and good.ย ย We have offended knowingly.โ€

Charles Spurgeon

I knew having sex outside of marriage was wrong.ย ย I knew having unprotected sex outside of marriage was stupid.ย ย And yet I did it time after time.ย ย God gifted me with mercy over and over.ย ย He also gifted me with mercy when He delivered the right man to me to become my husband.ย ย I didnโ€™t deserve him.ย ย I was a mess.ย ย After 31 years of marriage I still thank God my husband has stuck with me as I erase the ways I learned while outside of Godโ€™s justification. And I know now, itโ€™s time for me to pick up my part of the bargain.

Blessed are the merciful for they will be shown mercy.

Matthew 5:7

Iโ€™m grateful that God flipped this admonition.ย ย He has done it with so many of us.ย ย He has shown us the mercy we didnโ€™t deserve.ย ย We need to pass that glorious gift along to others.ย ย There are those in our lives that we hope to fail, that we wish ill will, that we hope will โ€œget their just due.โ€ย ย Arenโ€™t we thankful that God doesnโ€™t think the same about us?

For about two years I worked as a substitute in a high school office.  I job-shared for a woman who was completing her counseling certification.  There were two positions like mine.  When the other position was filled with a young woman I was encouraged by her enthusiasm.  She was full of ideas and brought a cheery face to the job.  And then she started being late every day.  At times she wouldnโ€™t even show up.  When she did show up, I would find her on Facebook or on personal phone calls.  Her failings impacted my job.  I became bitter because, hey, I was just a substitute.  Why should I have to make up for her issues when she was an actual employee?  I found myself driving to work dreading what was to come.  I actually prayed she would get hit by a bus so I wouldnโ€™t have to deal with her anymore.  Yes, I did that.

The turmoil got so bad I considered quitting.ย ย But I knew that would leave others, whom I considered friends, in a difficult situation.ย ย Three months in, I sat at an intersection on the way to work.ย ย It was a long red light.ย ย The Holy Spirit descended on me in the car.ย ย I had my Perspective Change Moment.ย ย What I should have been doing all along was praying for God to intervene positively in her life.ย ย I could have left her to do two peopleโ€™s jobs and/or complain endlessly to the supervisor, but I needed to show mercy and love.ย ย So, I prayed every day for the next week that God would resolve the problem.ย ย For God to help her.ย ย For God to take control.ย ย The peace that came over me was amazing!

After that one week she resigned.ย ย And a good friend of mine who had been a finalist for the job previously was hired.ย ย God is good.ย ย God is forgiving.ย ย God, thankfully, is merciful.ย ย ย I love this quote by Christopher Columbus about mercy:

I am a most noteworthy sinner, but I have cried out to the Lord for grace and mercy, and they have covered me completely.ย ย I have found the sweetest consolation since I made it my whole purpose to enjoy His marvelous presence.

To whom do you need to show mercy?ย ย How has God been merciful to you?

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Jericho Walls Are Shaking

She remembered that night when she laid in her bed waiting and expecting.ย ย Waiting and expecting her father to enter the room and sexually assault her, again.ย ย But as she lay there she thought, โ€œOne day I will do something great.โ€ย ย And great she did.ย ย In 2005, Time magazineโ€™s โ€œ25 Most Influential Evangelicals in Americaโ€ ranked her as 17th.ย ย She is known all over the world by her ministry and volunteer work.ย ย Joyce Meyer overcame constant sexual abuse as a child because of hope and faith in God.

This week we looked at just one chapter in the Book of James.ย ย Chapter one brought us front and center in how to deal with trials.ย ย He spoke of spiritual wisdom and the wise act of listening and controlling our anger.ย ย ย In just 26 sentences He stands in front of us in admonition to wake us Christians up. And show the world what trust in Jesus Christ, our savior really means.

Do not merely listen to the Word and so deceive yourselves.ย ย DO WHAT IT SAYS.

James 1:22

He goes on to say that when we leave church, after we pray each morning, or read our devotional each day we ought not to then turn out into the world and forget who we are.  We are not like everyone else.  Isnโ€™t that what our parents told us when we wanted to go hang out with the โ€œcool kids?โ€  There are expectations and responsibilities to accepting Christ.

When I was a โ€œbaby Christianโ€ I had a conversation about church with my mom.  She is the daughter of a Baptist minister.  She hasnโ€™t regularly attended church since she was a child.  She doesnโ€™t pray.   She says she believes in God but anyone that knows her couldnโ€™t tell that to be true.  She told me that when she was a child at church, she would watch all the ladies attend church dutifully.  And then, they would gossip, hate each other, complain endlessly to her father, lie, cheat, and all other manner of sin.  My mother had and still has a dim view of โ€œChristians.โ€   

When we leave the doors of church or our home we mustn’t forget who we are.

How many of us live our lives fully realizing that not only is God watching how we handle trials and temptations, but our non-Christian friends and neighbors?  Do they see you getting angry and yelling and gossiping?  Do they get a sense of peace from you during difficult times?  Are you easy to talk to because they know you will listen without judgement?  And are the words you speak back coming from a Godly place?  Do you turn down offers of socializing with friends and tell them itโ€™s because you have a Bible Study you are committed to?  Have they heard you speak about your quiet time you spend with God, praying for others?  Do you tell others you will pray for them and do it immediately, with them?  What was the last book or movie or tv show you settled into?  Was it something where you could gain wisdom of Godโ€™s ways?


While sitting and listening to God to speak through me before I sat down to write this, the song โ€œMy Fatherโ€™s Houseโ€ started playing over and over in my head.ย ย 

The Jericho Walls are quaking

Strongholds are shaking

Love is breaking through

When the Father’s in the room

Cory Asbury, The FAther’s House

When we invite God into our lives during hardship, when we seek His wisdom, when we listen for His voice, and act as He wants us to, we experience His strength and love.ย ย The shackles of sin and anger, the ugliness of self-degradation and self-centeredness give way to freedom.ย ย ย Freedom to see His beauty in resolving problems.ย ย Freedom to experience joy in even the most difficult of times.ย 

James pulls no punches.ย ย But he always reminds us, in the midst of admonishment, of the โ€œwhy.โ€ย ย 

  1. We will develop maturity and perseverance
  2. We receive the โ€œcrown of lifeโ€ that the Lord has promised
  3. We are given the Word of Truth so we can be โ€œfirstfruitsโ€ of all God has created
  4. We live in the righteousness that God desires for us
  5. When we rid ourselves of immorality and accept the Word planted in us, we are saved
  6. We are given freedom
  7. We will be blessed in all we do

James is not asking us to do anything more than what we ask of our employees, our children or our friends.ย ย If we make a commitment, promise, accept a job, want a friendship, then we must work on it and act in such a way as to say we are all โ€œin.โ€

My challenge for this weekend it to be fully aware of our actions and words, especially while around non-Christians.ย ย Good luck, my prayers are with you.

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God the Recycler


So here we are — Day 30 of 30 Days of Praise! And although my daily prayer praise of the Almighty doesn’t end with today, my challenge to find different ways to write about God’s amazing characteristics is complete. When I started this more than 30 days ago I was on a journey to help me learn a new way of praying. I felt comfortable with thanking God, asking God for help, and asking Him for forgiveness. But praising God seemed so strange and uncomfortable to me. True to His character He placed a challenge on my heart and mind to help me grow.

I heard a great comment about God’s character yesterday. “God never allows us to fail a test, he just gives us the test over and over until we pass.” It goes right along with Charles Stanley’s Life Principle #7:

The dark moments of our life will last only so long as necessary for God to accomplish His purpose in us.

Charles Stanley, 30 Life Principles

God Allows Us to Be Reduced to Brokenness

You see, I didn’t start my journey of learning how to praise God 30 days ago. I started the day God spoke to me in my bedroom a few years ago. While I sat enjoying my little pity party God said, “Enough is enough.” He shook me with the simple statement: “What have you really done?” You see I was whining about being such a “good Christian” and yet my life felt like a mess. He spoke those words loudly again, “Yes, what have you really done?” He had been letting me do things my own way for a long time. But He loves us too much to let us continue down destructive paths for too long. That day started my training. And it was intense. He taught me that the secret to a peace-filled life was a lot simpler than what I imagined. I didn’t need to be “doing” so much. I just needed to obey Him — no matter the consequences, no matter how outlandish the request sounded. 1 John 2:25 says:

But if anyone obeys His word, love for God is truly made complete in them.

1 John 2:25

Not only was I reduced to brokenness but God was right there to put me back together as a much more simple, faithful Christian with one goal: Obey.

God Re-Uses Lessons To Get Us to Listen

Throughout my continuing journey I have experienced many times when the same lesson pops up over and over. It’s when I give in and say, “ok, ok, I get it!” that He finally moves on. From podcasts, to daily devotionals, and songs on the radio to a Bible study, His Word weaves its way seamlessly throughout our lives. On August 1, I started with my devotional, “New Day, New You” by Joyce Meyer. The day’s lesson? “Simple, Believing Prayer” based on Matthew 6:7. “And when you pray, do not heap phrases as the gentiles do, for they think they will be heard for their much speaking.” Good start as I then turn to my “30 Life Principles” Bible study lesson for the day: “Listening to God is essential to walking with God.” In it the question was asked, “What does Jesus say about the use of many words?” Based on, guess….. Matthew 6:7. I saw a message forming here. I then decided to read a bit of my “Spurgeon on Prayer & Spiritual Warfare.” I don’t read it everyday but I felt led to that day. And lo and behold, the topic was approaching God with reverence, joy, submission, confidence and sincerity. Not babbling on with useless words intended to make myself sound “christian-like.” Point taken.

What if through this odd little coincidence, or answered prayer, Heโ€™s sending you–youโ€ฆ out of all of those billions of people–a direct personal message of reassurance? To stop worrying? To keep the faith? That everything will be all right?ย 

Squire Rushnell, Godwink stories

God Takes Trash and Makes It Into Something Beautiful

Each Sunday we would see him. A man in about his 40s dressed to the 9s. Not just full suits but “zoot” suits. Big shoulder pads, double breasted suits. But what was most impressive was his hair. I dated a guy back in the 80s who played in a 60s throwback band with that same hair — pumped up, rockabilly pompadour. He stood out among the mostly white, upper class 60-80 year olds. It came to pass we ended up in the same membership class. I told him how I enjoyed seeing what cool and interesting outfits he was going to show up in each week. And, I was definitely impressed with his hair. Both being named Chris/Kris we of course, hit it off. When it came time to tell our testimony I realized what a blessing it was that God put me in the same group as Chris. He told us how his family growing up were Christians. But he rebelled. He wanted long hair, hard rock and a free spirited life. One day when he was 15 his father came to him and said, “We are going to Africa to be missionaries. You have two choices, you can cut your hair and come with us or you stay here in California and find your own way.” He chose to keep his hair. He also decided that Los Angeles was the place to become a rock star. He played bass and guitar. He ended up on the streets, homeless. And he turned to drugs which eventually led to heroin. He told us he should’ve died at least 10 times. But God was not done with him. He pulled him from the fire after yet another devastating drug-fueled, car accident. And led him on the path to recovery. He now goes all over the country speaking on the perils of heroin and his faith in God. He jumped in to help mentor middle school and high school kids at our church. He’s one cool cat. Chris was like the trash that rolls along our city streets, finding its way into doorways. Crumpled up and seemingly useless. God transformed him into a true follower of Christ — a thing of beauty. His transformation story gives me hope for my, much smaller problems.


I praise God today for all the work He has done and will do in our lives. He whispers to us. He shouts at us. He shakes us and he nudges us. He will never force us to follow Him. And He will never fully let us go. Click on the photo below to enjoy the song, “Raise a Hallelujah” by Bethel Music — but here’s a hint, play it loud and raise your hands high!! I look forward to having you join me on my next challenge — “His Works Project”– coming soon!

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The Heaviest of Burdens


The other day while out walking with my dog I was listening to a podcast by a well-known Christian speaker.  She asked the question: โ€œDo you remember a time when you sinned, I mean really sinned?  How did it feel?โ€  I stopped to think on this.  Iโ€™ve never murdered someone.  But I did encourage a friend in my younger days to get an abortion.  Iโ€™ve never been a thief, although I have, at times, realized I wasnโ€™t charged for something correctly and didnโ€™t go back to the store clerk.  Iโ€™ve never cheated on my husband.  But do those lustful thoughts count?  I check in with my mom and dad, through gritted teeth.  I put God first. Well, except for the times I put money and my children first.  Iโ€™m good to my neighbors even though Iโ€™ve spoken badly about some.  See, Iโ€™ve only sinned a wee bit.  

I realized that every single time I sinned โ€œjust a littleโ€ made me feel a โ€œlittle bitโ€ broken.  At times it made me feel a lot broken.  The Christian speaker went on to say, โ€œNow imagine Jesus on the cross.  He is the only person to walk the Earth who has not sinned.  But at that moment His Father placed all your darkness, all your brokenness, all your pain caused by sin on Him.  There is no one else who has experienced so much pain. Imagine how He must have felt.โ€  It brought me to tears.  It brings me to tears as I write this.

This visual is what I praise God for today.  The understanding of Jesusโ€™ pain and sacrifice made for us.  I previously hadnโ€™t made an emotional connection to this powerful, earth shaking moment in our time.   I had the knowledge but not the emotional response.  Baptist teacher Oswald Chambers once said about Jesus on the cross:

The Cross was a superb triumph in which the foundations of hell were shaken. There is nothing more certain in Time or Eternity than what Jesus Christ did on the Cross: He switched the whole of the human race back into a right relationship with God. 

Oswald Chambers

My father is reading The Saxon series books.  In it, a character refers to Jesus as the โ€œNailed God.โ€  It brought to mind movies Iโ€™ve seen showing the crucifixion.  With each hammering of a nail through Jesusโ€™ feet and wrists I cried.  But it was out of sadness and horror.  That day, when I visualized Jesus on the cross pulling, drawing and tearing our sins from us and placing them squarely in His own heart and soul I was overcome with gratefulness and sorrow.  I want to apologize to Jesus.  His gift to us caused Him so much pain.

Itโ€™s a well-accepted fact that when we are forced to work hard for something, say a new car, home, a good job, we tend to take better care of it.  I didnโ€™t have to work for the gifts of salvation and redemption.  Iโ€™ve proven over and over that sin is easy for me to commit.  I need to keep Jesusโ€™ pain, his suffering, and His willingness to take mine, closer to mind each and every day. His love for us can only be repaid with obedience and thankfulness.