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Shaloha


Life is like a stormy sea 
That tosses to and fro, 
But God’s Word will ever be 
A ballast for my soul; 
By its truth I’ll be held fast 
Till I reach heaven’s shore 
Where I will be home at last 
And sail life’s sea no more!

โ€”Perry Boardman


How often do you feel like a sailing ship being tossed to and fro?  Or a tiny dinghy out on a stormy lake?  I certainly felt that way more times than I can count.  My โ€œpeace-filledโ€ days were the ones I could count on a couple hands.  But Jesus is the Prince of Peace!  Itโ€™s so fascinating to study the days of Jesus and His interactions with the leaders of the Jewish faith.  We have the benefit of thousands of years of scholarly study to correctly interpret Jesusโ€™ words.  We also have the truth of the resurrection to back up Jesusโ€™ position with God.

But think of those leaders who knew the prophesy in Isaiah 9:6 which states: โ€œFor to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders.  And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.โ€  They certainly werenโ€™t anxiously waiting for this Nazarene.  A child born to a lowly woman.  Someone not officially holding a title of Prince or even Rabbi.  And yet there he stood.  

โ€œShalom โ€“ peace โ€“ is a precious word to the Jewish people.ย ย It means more than just the absence of war or distress.ย ย Shalom means wholeness, completeness, health, security, even prosperity in the best sense.ย ย When you are enjoying Godโ€™s peace, there is joy and contentment,โ€ says Warren Wiersbe on his commentary of John 14:25-31.ย ย The Pharisees, and other lay people, were looking for someone to just give them the absence of war and the gift of prosperity.ย ย They were missing out on the eternal peace that God gifts us through both war and prosperity.ย ย When I think of Godโ€™s peace the eye of a hurricane always comes to mind.ย ย This eye is an area of mostly calm weather inside a terrifying hurricane.ย ย 


According to the website, A Catholic Gentleman, which promotes faith in men, โ€œover 40 million Americans suffer from an anxiety disorder of some kind, and there are no doubt countless others that live with severe anxiety but are undiagnosed.ย โ€œย But how do we obtain this elusive peace?ย ย The Catholic Gentleman gives some great insight:

First, it means living in the present moment. A great deal of anxiety comes from worrying about the past or the future, neither of which can be changed. Even though we know it is useless, we often expend untold emotional energy worrying. 

Second, it means accepting the circumstances of life without impatient resistance, realizing that everything is either positively willed or at least allowed by God. 

Finally, it means trust in the goodness of God. Many of us are afraid to completely abandon ourselves to the will of God because we are afraid of what it might mean. 

These three pieces of advice are so clear and helpful.ย ย But they are not easy.ย ย I once told a good friend that some days just working on staying in the present moment took every ounce of energy I had.ย ย There are no quick fixes to this amazing gift God wants for us.ย ย Unlike grace and salvation which, once we accept Jesus as the son of God who removes our stains, is given fully and freely to us, the gift of peace can seem more like trying to open a clamshell style package.ย ย You think it looks simple and you try poking your fingernail between the two pieces of plastic.ย ย When that doesnโ€™t work you look for a helpful tab somewhere the manufacturer must have added in order to tear that puppy open.ย ย But alas, none exists.ย ย Then you start trying to use brute strength or maybe your teeth.ย ย You feel a bit silly.ย ย I mean itโ€™s you against a piece of plastic!ย ย You finally give in and get out a knife or scissors.ย ย And even that may lead to a bloody finger.ย ย When all is said and done you have in front of you a mangled piece of plastic and the object of your desire, freed from the bonds of the clamshell.ย ย You look at your freed item and somehow it feels more valuable from the work you just put in.ย ย And you exclaim, โ€œfinally!โ€

I love the teachings of Joyce Meyer primarily because this taming of our minds is her primary teaching focus when it comes to following Godโ€™s Word.ย ย One of her devotional days says,

โ€œNobody is successful with any venture just by wishing they would be.ย ย Successful people make a plan and talk to themselves about that plan constantly.โ€

Joyce Meyer, Trusting God Day by Day

This is based on 2 Cor 10:5: โ€œWe capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey God.โ€ย ย When we keep our mind in the present and decide what goes on up in our thick skull we are miles ahead toward achieving that gift of peace.ย 

I know a lot people who spend most of their time on the wall of the hurricane instead of the eye.ย ย Theyโ€™re the โ€œChicken Littlesโ€ and the โ€œDebbie Downersโ€ and the โ€œJoy Suckers.โ€ย ย Iโ€™m familiar with all of them as I perfected each of them at one time or another.ย ย Until I accepted Jesus.ย ย I surrendered to trusting the goodness of God.ย ย When I am facing tough situations I FIRST turn to God to pump a little extra peace into me.ย ย For a long time, I assumed that long-time Christians all had this peace.ย ย One friend I spoke to at the beginning of the COVID 19 scare, who has been a Christian much longer than I, was distraught.ย ย He said he just couldnโ€™t see God at work anywhere.ย ย I told him he sounded like the ship being tossed to and fro.ย ย And that without trust in God he wouldnโ€™t find peace.ย ย He stopped talking.ย ย He realized he had stepped out of Godโ€™s eye and into the storm.


I read this story as part of a sermon by Max Lucado on โ€œPeace that defies pain.โ€

โ€œI have everything I need for joy!โ€ Robert Reed said. โ€œAmazing!โ€ I thought.

His hands are twisted and his feet are useless. He canโ€™t bathe himself. He canโ€™t feed himself. He canโ€™t brush his teeth, comb his hair, or put on his underwear. His shirts are held together by strips of Velcroยฎ. His speech drags like a worn-out audio cassette.

Robert has cerebral palsy.

The disease keeps him from driving a car, riding a bike, and going for a walk. But it didnโ€™t keep him from graduating from high school or attending Abilene Christian University, from which he graduated with a degree in Latin. Having cerebral palsy didnโ€™t keep him from teaching at a St. Louis junior college or from venturing overseas on five mission trips.

And Robertโ€™s disease didnโ€™t prevent him from becoming a missionary in Portugal. He moved to Lisbon, alone, in 1972. There he rented a hotel room and began studying Portuguese. He found a restaurant owner who would feed him after the rush hour and a tutor who would instruct him in the language.

Then he stationed himself daily in a park, where he distributed brochures about Christ. Within six years he led seventy people to the Lord, one of whom became his wife, Rosa.

I heard Robert speak recently. I watched other men carry him in his wheelchair onto the platform. I watched them lay a Bible in his lap. I watched his stiff fingers force open the pages. And I watched people in the audience wipe away tears of admiration from their faces. Robert could have asked for sympathy or pity, but he did just the opposite. He held his bent hand up in the air and boasted, โ€œI have everything I need for joy.โ€

His shirts are held together by Velcroยฎ, but his life is held together by joy.โ€


I praise God, the Prince of Peace, the Giver of Joy, the Giver of Shaloha, as many on the beautifully peaceful island of Kauai like to say. I thank Him for helping me be steadfast in surrendering to Him so that I might live each moment in the eye rather than the walls of the storm.

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A Bold Forgiveness

A Bold Story by Andrea Cisneros

How did I know asking God to help me forgive my sister in law would lead to a deeply spiritual experience? I didnโ€™t of course.

 It all started a few weeks ago when my dear friend Kris invited me to be a part of her boldness challenge group. She instructed us to write down 3-5 bold actions you have always wanted to do.  After praying I created this list: 

  1. Play classical piano again. 
  2. Become more than a surface level Christian.
  3. Break free from the need to control everything so that I can cope with my anxiety: therefore being filled with life again
  4. Finally deal with my unforgiveness toward my sister-in-law and my step daughter

As I read other boldness challenger lists I thought to myself that my list seemed very unimpressive. But I moved forward with my list. I had no idea how to completely forgive my sister-in-law and step daughter as their past hurt had happened many years ago. So again, I reached out for Godโ€™s hand.

During this same time, my husband and I were in discussion about our annual Mammoth five-day tent camping trip with my husbandโ€™s side of the family. This was not the year to go! Not with Covid19.  I did everything in my power to make this trip not happen. Covid19 was my main excuse. After all, we would have to share the public bathrooms and showers with everyone at the camp site. Who wants to do that these days? But my real reason was spending all this time with my husbandโ€™s sister. Four years ago, she was very frustrated with her brother, my husband, and she said some very hurtful things.  Things that Iโ€™ve held onto. I felt I had a right to after all, she was out of line and never should have said the things she said. Now you must know that she did apologize to me three years ago with an excuse that I deemed lame and so I didnโ€™t accept her apology or forgive her. I didnโ€™t know how to get beyond myself and my inability to forgive so I gave it to God as we headed to Mammoth last week.

There is a back story here that I didnโ€™t plan for: healing from my anxiety and a need to control everything. It has been pretty crippling. My husband created a “man cave” and he chose pictures to hang on the wall from our first trip to Mammoth trip 10 years ago. As I looked at those pictures I remember how deeply moved I was to experience the beauty of the mountains and streams around the Mammoth area. I wanted to be that woman again — one who feels and sees and experiences the beauty of Godโ€™s creation. I didnโ€™t want to be defined by my anxiety anymore. Again, how do I get over this anxiety that rose out of nowhere following my motherโ€™s unexpected death two years ago? One week after that, my husband had brain surgery to completely rebuild his middle cerebral artery that had an aneurism which left him greatly compromised. His hospital stay was eight days instead of three. His doctor wanted to send him to a rehabilitation facility but I said I would care for him — 24 hours a day for months.  I was terrified and grief stricken from my motherโ€™s death but my focus was to help him get back on his feet. He returned to work March of that year but I was shocked to realize how much recovery was still needed. I cared for him as he slowly returned to normalโ€ฆa new normal. Then August of that year, my oldest sister died.  That all being said Iโ€™m dealing with a form of PTSD according to my doctor.

The day before we left for Mammoth I watched the news. It was all about the spike in numbers of virus cases. I texted my friend that I was struggling with giving this camp trip to God when it seemed so risky. As she has always done, she challenged me that I once again was making an excuse to not be with my sister-in-law for five days. She said, โ€œThis may sound morbid but you could die tomorrow in a car accident on the way there. Do you want to stand in front of God and say proudly, โ€˜I trusted you fully!โ€™?โ€. Thanking her once again for being so honest I told her I had been looking at the pictures my husband put on the wall in his man cave.  I want to be that woman again. I want to live free from fears. I want to see the beauty that surrounds me. I want to feel Godโ€™s glory in His creation. My friend said I should change all the โ€œwantsโ€ to โ€œwillโ€ and read this out loud in front of the mirror.  And then tighten my belt of truth and sharpen my sword. The battle was on!

The morning we left, my devotional was about forgiving 100%! Not 90% or even 99% but 100%. Unforgiveness doesnโ€™t look good on Christians!  Our first night at camp was disastrous as our air mattress kept leaking and three times that night we woke up to inflate the darn thing. As I lay awake most of the night, I kept surrendering everything to God. Asking Him to give me the energy to enjoy the next day even though I hadnโ€™t slept. I was surprised when I was urged by the Holy Spirit to forgive my husband. Why? Because he has lingering memory issues from his brain surgery he forgets a lot of things. Like the fact that the air mattress had issues when he used it last time. He forgets a lot of things like peopleโ€™s names. Small things really but this wasnโ€™t the person I married. I was greatly annoyed.  So now Iโ€™m being asked to forgive him because, โ€he didnโ€™t do this on purpose.โ€ OK. 

We started the next day focused on repairing the air mattress. Then off we went to kayak Twin Lakes. What a magnificent experience! The sky was so blue and the air so fresh. We paddled around and saw a beautiful waterfall. There were duck families on the water. I was up close and personal with Godโ€™s creation and I was brought to tears. Later the same day we did a short hike to McCloud Lake. I was the woman from 10 years ago! I was filled with awe and wonder.

 We had many experiences that were wonderful and brought tears to my eyes as I experienced fully the glorious creation of God but sleep was not one of them. The second night, sleep was the same and as I surrendered everything to God, I was urged to forgive myself. What? I have been through a traumatic year and a half with everything that has occurred. So I need to forgive myself for not being the person I used to be — that person in those pictures my husband has on his man cave wall. 

Each day we spent our evenings around the campfire and to my surprise one night my sister-in-law said to me, โ€œI love you Andrea.โ€ With tears in my eyes I said, “I love you too” and I meant it. Finally I had forgiven her after all those years. This is what Godโ€™s forgiveness looks like. Love! I realized that it is up to me to replace my bad memories of what was said to me years ago with the new memories I made this trip to Mammoth. I will play the new memories we made — memories of love and forgiveness not 90% or even 99% but 100%. Thank you, God, for using me in an amazing way and allowing me to be made new again.

Hank and Andrea enjoying the beauty of Mammoth Mountain California July 2020